"i miss him. all time time i miss him. its not waves its constant. all the time..."
isabelle stevens

i wasnt expecting to fly to the moon
or to hear angels singing
or even to be floating on air
but the absolute emptiness that i was presented with surprised and shocked me
can pain really be the over arching emotion that engulfs you robs you till you are left with not even a spec of anything?
i want to feel again.
it might even be good to cry.
instead all i feel is that racing of my heart and the tightness in my chest that makes it hard to breathe.
a huge gulfing void.